The End of an Old Life, and The Start of a New Beginning (Journall entry 1)

This is where I begin my journey...one step at a time. Habits don't form over night, they need patience and care, and lots of effort. Especially if it's a good habit you seek. In my case, yes. Very much so. I really want to know God more, on a deeper level. Who said there was a such thing as, "too much of God"? Because actually, there isn't enough time to spend with Him.
   God wants us to rise up and follow His will, He carries such an undying love for each and everyone of us. Definition of captivity: A christian held captive by anything that hinders the abundant and effective spirit-filled life God has planned for Him or Her. -Quote taken from Breaking Free, Beth Moore. 
   God has made each and every one of us with a plan in mind. We are each unique and beautiful in our own individual way, we are none alike. However, we were created in the likeness of our Lord. Be careful the company you keep and the sort of joy you seek! Further your learning to know more, about everything, including HIM...and your desire will grow stronger for Him.
  "Throw off your old and evil nature and your former way of life, which is rotten through and through, full of lust and deception. Instead, there must be a spiritual renewal of your thoughts and your attitudes. You must display a new nature because you are a new person, created in Gods likeness-righteous, holy, and true" -(Ephesians 4:22-24)
   This, (up above) was a perfect verse for me to stumble upon! Tonight, I have become single. And I chose to do so because the relationship was hindering me, more than encouraging me. It was damaging spiritually to both of us, and I didn't want that. I was given a book called "I've Kissed Dating Goodbye", by Joshua Harris. I was given this book at the time when I was dating a guy, and I just could not read it! Especially with an open and honest heart...or with focus-because I WAS DATING!! Tonight I re-read some parts I had skipped over, and I found the words were soothing to hear. I thought, 'all breakups are horrific...I don't want one, again'...but this one was different.
   When I broke it off, I was not left alone and nor was I broken in pieces or hurt to the bone. God was there for me, and my ex-boyfriend. Me and the guy I dated now remain steady friends, I guess you could call us best friends! We made the decision  and stuck with it, because we knew the outcomes would be much greater.He is such a great person. I was completely caught off guard, waiting for an explosion of guilt and sadness...and waiting for the need to cry for hours and eat gallons of chocolate and nachos. I wasn't sad, but really really happy about the choice I made! My world is coming alive again...was what I thought. I encourage others, to realize whether dating is the right thing to do or not. Talk to God about it, and He will guide you through any storm...nothing is ever too great for Him to deal with.