I've got some interesting feedback from the people reading my blogs, so far. For the most part, the comments are encouraging. For those who read and laugh it off, I care deeply for you, because I know who you are. And I know why you are like that :)
Now, if you guy's haven't already realized, these blogs I write are intended for those who are interested in God, or maybe just my thoughts! Because I am a creative writer, and there's strong voice behind my writing that tells you what I am like. Which is really kind of cool if you haven't met me-but you sort of know what I'm like! For me, Jesus Christ is the center of my world. My faith is incredible...how isn't! Believing and trusting in a God that you cannot see? And giving him all your worries, your heart, your future...giving him your all, and trusting he will keep you safe and guide you through life. What do you live for?
"To gain that which is worth having it may be necessary to lose everything else."
Eh, so I know a few of you think I am a little "crazy", but we all are at one point in time for something or...someone. This, is my someone, so please respect that.
I was never this "into God". I grew up in a christian family...reading the bible, going to church on Sundays, studying verses, wearing skirts (femininity) and wearing a covering over our (girls) heads, for respect. To me, it was habits formed over time. I knew the drill before we ate, that we must not touch the meal before we prayed. I didn't know God on a personal level, obviously. I observed the common Christians I saw, and I didn't like it...they were all serious and plain. I was afraid I'd be so dull. Then I started going to conferences and seeing more and more other Christians! Not all were the same. The ones that caught my eye...were the ones who glowed. Not the kind of creepy alien glow. A peaceful tranquil happy glow...it radiated when they smiled (which was A LOT). They were gentle, and soft spoken-but enthusiastic and bubbly! I LOVED IT....That's the sort of Christian I want to be!! I thought...and I tried so hard to mimick their happiness but I failed each time. Like I had some sort of vile of energy, I'd have bursts but it would leave as soon as it came. I started to give up...
This year was different. I started reading books, gaining some useful knowledge...that I started applying to my life! I read more and more...I read devotionals, and advice columns, I searched verses that paired up with my emotions. I searched and searched and retained. I learned that God has given us solutions for our problems, hope for our lost souls and He promises comfort for the aching hearts. Can you believe that?? I never, until now of course. The more I read, the more I desired to know God. I finally understood what makes a person glow! Having a close relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. Giving him your everything. Does that not make sense? I don't have to worry. I don't have to stress. If I'm angry, all I have to do is ask for his help, and he calms me. On those bad days, where I take everything to heart, and I become disheartened and I feel like I'm going to burst into tears....he soothes me. I'm taken care off, so well...He's my hero. Most definetly my knight in shining armor. He made a promise or two, and he KEPT those promises. I wouldn't want any other God but this, he is truly worth dying for.
I can feel the glow inside me...starting within the cavity of my heart, being pumped through my veins and into my blood stream...it's like love is flowing through me, love from my LORD Jesus. All I can do is smile, at the beautiful and complex earth he created, the interesting people he formed, and tears form when I think of what he has done for us, and what little we do for him...my heart breaks even more, knowing others are hurting out there, searching for rest in their stormy lives. While there's a Savior reaching out his hand, just waiting for you to grasp it! Not many know amazing the transformation feels...as if I was opened from the grave and coming alive again. My heart was frozen, and he didn't wait for it to thaw. He melted it in seconds. I felt empty and alone...and he has given me a purpose, and comfort, wherever I go. He takes my fears even before I have time to react. He truly is amazing.
If you are interested in God, all you have to do is talk to him...like you do with the people around you! It's called communication ;) AND....if you are too stubborn to speak outloud, God has the power to read your thoughts :) So...think away Darling. He is there for you, and he cares sooo so much for you...He loves you. Like crazy.
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